A Little Blue

I'm a little blue tonight. I went with Mom to take Evie to the zoo tonight. She is such a sweet little girl that I just felt sad. How I would love for her to be mine.

We are so, so, so fucking broke. It's no joke. I don't know what we're going to do this month. I'm not tapping into my savings. Nah I've bailed us out too many times to count. Seth spending his financial aid money likes it going out of style. So {YAWN} let him figure it out this time.

He wants to go on a trip to Alaska. I say okay, but we need to save money. Said it for months. Finally set up an account. He wants to go soon. I say okay, but you need to put money in there. Has he? No. Will he? Probably not. Then I'm not going to bother either jack and if he thinks our tax refund is going to pay for it. Sorry my half is going towards my car. Oh yes I did say half. I'm not blowing my tax refund on his brother for the 2nd year in a row. If it means no Alaska trip, oh nooos. Sure I'd love to go too, but if you can't be bothered to put aside any extra well I'm not going to stress out about it. Got too much on my plate to care.

Car is in shambles. Still runs though. Someone actually broke into it. Really amazed someone took the effort. No car radio. Need to get back window replaced. Husband's crazy ex-coworker slashed his tire. Tv broke.

Got my credit card balance onto a 0% credit card until December. Minimum payment went up. Not sure if I can swing it with my current salary. May not be able to put aside a monthly savings amount since I can't work much.

Christmas bonus probably cancelled. One of the few benefits about that place. Not sure who he thinks is going to work their ass off for 8.00 an hour with no benefits.

Sure would be nice to catch a break once in awhile. I would like to win $50,000 in the lottery this week. Make it so, God.