waiting is the hardest part

1 year 10 months 22 days 11 hours 27 minutes

It's so long to wait! Too long to wait! It's so hard! Like a prison sentence and I haven't done anything wrong except be the unluckiest person on earth.

Everyone else gets a house and babies, but me. It's not fair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Whine!!!!!!

Stephanie's mysterious message was about buying a house. Sigh of course, because god forbid they have to wait to have anything. Of course everything worked out perfectly for them as usual.

Meanwhile Seth and I are no closer to having anything as usual. It's so depressing that I just want to cry all day everyday until the magic day comes, but no I have to get up and work and fight and gnash my teeth towards something that probably will never ever happen. Because every time I make progress here comes broken this, have to have that, penalty this.

Now we have to use the money this time to get Seth a doctor's appointment. So unfair that I managed to get my doctor's appointments free, but he doesn't save so much a dollar for well anything.

So why bother at all? That's my feeling. Just once I want something to work out for us, but it never does. Never will.

I have my rotations for next year. I got one at Medco, which I'm really glad for. That's step 1 to getting a job there that has benefits and a schedule good for kids, which is a big step towards my goal in March 2012. I'm down to 152.8 lbs so hopefully I will get out of my 150s soon and that brings me closer to my weight loss goal.

My baby fund has $1187 dollars in it, but I seem to be stuck this month about adding any more to it. I guess $15 for Spring Break money and my usual $30. Kimberly-Clark is giving me the runaround about the check. I still need to close my one bank account out to get the money into my baby fund. Maybe I will do that now. I guess there will be a garage sale in the future. Moola is going slow. No birth control appointments until next month Haven't seen any research opportunities, haven't won anything worth selling. If I find my Fandango gift card I could put that up for sale. I won a Best Buy gift card that I could also sell when I get it.