Bummer I had a chance to win some decent money tonight if I picked the biggest upset in round 3 of the NCCA tournament, but of course their was a bigger upset than what I picked before the game in which I picked as the biggest upset even started. Of course the team I picked didn't win anyways, but it was very close. Just once I would love to catch a big break like that, but it's never happened for me.
Of course I have $50 going into my baby fund tomorrow, which puts me over $1000. Plus my ebay auction went well over what I expected at $197. Shipping was more than I expected at $24 dollars, but oh well. Still made a decent profit, which I can transfer over to the account.
The birth control research people are ticking me off as they switched to pre-paid debit cards. Ugh I want a check to put into my bank account not some fee-riddled crappy card. This makes it more difficult for me to transfer the money over. I guess I can buy Giant Eagle cards or something and use those to buy groceries/gas and then transfer the money over. Thankfully they gave me a check this time, but are unlikely to do so in the future.
The appointments for this anyways seem to be dwindling down, which means less money to put into my account. So now I need to come up with some other options to make some cash to put into the account and keep it growing. After all the sooner I save $9000, the sooner I will be able to start trying to conceive.
Seth and I are starting a new diet this Sunday. We signed up for our channel 10 weight loss challenge for the next 10 weeks and I'm determined to finally see the end of 150s. Between picking back up my running program, starting the wii fit program, and the flat belly diet; I'm hoping to drop a lot of weight over the next 10 weeks. Ideally I'd like to lose 15lbs total. This will put me in great shape for the summer and hopefully I will also run a 5K too.
Stephanie left a mysterious message on facebook this week. Of course I was all, OMG are you pregnant?, in my head. So now I have that weighing on me. I keep hoping that they won't have anymore kids until at least April of 2011 so that at least I will have less than a year until our TTC date. So please, please no pregnancies yet. I just don't think I can handle it until we are much closer to our own trying date. In fact I would prefer if their next kid came closer to our own child's date.
Ohh that reminds me that I was going to buy a fertility test once I got my student loans. I'm totally doing so right now.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Less than two years
It's now less than two years until we start trying for a baby. I was excited to cross that milestone, because it means that each day that I only have to go through that day one more time childless and not even trying for children.
My savings are going well. I'm almost at a $1000, which is great. I would be closer, but I've stupidly put all my important papers in a paper bag and I think Seth threw it out. Of course he would never admit this and I can't know for 100% sure. I wish he would just be honest with me so that I knew instead of searching all over the place for these papers, but I know he has no problems lying to me so I can't take his word for it either that he never saw those papers. Pretty dumb of me to put these papers in a bag, because it did look like trash. Sigh yet another disaster in the Jackson household.
Speaking of which, our dryer broke and we apparently need to buy a new television for our downstairs. It's hard to have company and no television. Of course I thought we would have a chance to fix it this week while they stayed with Seth's parents, but we found out when they arrived that they planned to spend two weeks with us. Ugh. They couldn't have figured this out in advance.
At least Adam's girlfriend is nice. It's weird to see him being all lovey. Kind of makes me laugh a little. She talks non-stop about her dad and apparently he pays for everything for her, which as someone who's been an adult for a long time is weird to me.
Kind of makes me miss those early days when Seth and I were so loving. I've really lost some respect for him over the years and he's broken my trust by lying to me. I just feel like all we do is wade through crap and we barely get through one thing before another hits us. I hate feeling like I can't trust him that I have to check up on him all the time, but everytime I trust him, he betrays that trust. So how can I trust him now? After seven years if he hasn't changed then why would I expect him to change now?
I feel like I'm such a low priority to him that he bends over backwards to please relative strangers, but won't go out of his way to please me. Like for my birthday and Valentine's day, he didn't even get me anything. Ok he finally showed up with a Valentine's gift when I was hurt he didn't get me anything and he did show up with a "gift" for my birthday a week late. A dvd he got out of the bargain bin. He whines about being broke again, but there is always a couple dollars to buy those fruity selzsers every day and he had no problem buying a dvd, because his friend wanted to see it. He can find the money for anyone else, but for me? Sorry I'm broke. Yet look how much money he is spending on his brother!
I guess I just don't get it. He supposely loves me, but he is unwilling to do anything on his own for our future. I already figured out that like everyone else I just can't count on him.
My savings are going well. I'm almost at a $1000, which is great. I would be closer, but I've stupidly put all my important papers in a paper bag and I think Seth threw it out. Of course he would never admit this and I can't know for 100% sure. I wish he would just be honest with me so that I knew instead of searching all over the place for these papers, but I know he has no problems lying to me so I can't take his word for it either that he never saw those papers. Pretty dumb of me to put these papers in a bag, because it did look like trash. Sigh yet another disaster in the Jackson household.
Speaking of which, our dryer broke and we apparently need to buy a new television for our downstairs. It's hard to have company and no television. Of course I thought we would have a chance to fix it this week while they stayed with Seth's parents, but we found out when they arrived that they planned to spend two weeks with us. Ugh. They couldn't have figured this out in advance.
At least Adam's girlfriend is nice. It's weird to see him being all lovey. Kind of makes me laugh a little. She talks non-stop about her dad and apparently he pays for everything for her, which as someone who's been an adult for a long time is weird to me.
Kind of makes me miss those early days when Seth and I were so loving. I've really lost some respect for him over the years and he's broken my trust by lying to me. I just feel like all we do is wade through crap and we barely get through one thing before another hits us. I hate feeling like I can't trust him that I have to check up on him all the time, but everytime I trust him, he betrays that trust. So how can I trust him now? After seven years if he hasn't changed then why would I expect him to change now?
I feel like I'm such a low priority to him that he bends over backwards to please relative strangers, but won't go out of his way to please me. Like for my birthday and Valentine's day, he didn't even get me anything. Ok he finally showed up with a Valentine's gift when I was hurt he didn't get me anything and he did show up with a "gift" for my birthday a week late. A dvd he got out of the bargain bin. He whines about being broke again, but there is always a couple dollars to buy those fruity selzsers every day and he had no problem buying a dvd, because his friend wanted to see it. He can find the money for anyone else, but for me? Sorry I'm broke. Yet look how much money he is spending on his brother!
I guess I just don't get it. He supposely loves me, but he is unwilling to do anything on his own for our future. I already figured out that like everyone else I just can't count on him.
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